God help me Paul Merson in tears as he opens up on scary addiction which lost him £7m

Paul Merson emotional discussing gambling addiction

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Paul Merson discussed his new memoir Hooked: Addiction and the Long Road to Recover with Richard Madeley and Susanna Reid on Tuesday’s Good Morning Britain. The former England and Arsenal footballer opening up on his battle with addiction as he revealed he slipped back into destructive patterns during lockdown.

Pointing to a handwritten note included in the book, Susanna said: “You wrote on the 30th of August, ‘I need to stop gambling I love my wife and kids and I’m so happy with them.

“‘When I was in Orlando with my wife and two children it was the happiest I’ve been in years because I wasn’t gambling.

“‘I hate myself when I gamble, I hate it please help me god, I need to pay everyone back and get my wife and kids a house please gold help me.”

Paul broke down in tears as he reflected on his powerful words. 

“That’s spoken right from a broken heart Paul, isn’t it?” Susanna asked. “But you’ve got back.”

Paul’s voice broke as he struggled to hold back tears: “Yeah I have got back it’s just sad.

“In lockdown it was scary, my brain was telling me I’d saved enough money to get a deposit for a house to get us out of rented accommodation.

“But watching the news all the time as an addict I have to keep on watching something and the news was blowing my mind.

“People understand addiction talks to you, ‘We’re not getting out of this, you’re not getting out of this, we’re going to be in lockdown forever, this is it and I need to get a house and the only way to do that is to chase my money.’”

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